From trauma to psychosomatics to mental health and the joy of life
I didn’t know how to be happy anymore. The past kept closing in on me ever again. Subtle psychological violence in childhood, developed traumas into adulthood, broken relationships, social breakdown and secondary traumas resulted in depression, addiction, guilt and low self-esteem.
From the first moment on our contact was straightforward and with confidence, so I decided to fly to Nice to see Ilona for the first date possible. It was about a month to get there. This time was a challenge for me – the past, which had only recently come up, shook me deeply and was also the reason for my search for help. I want to say that Ilona was there for me from the first moment on and accompanied me until we met in person at the airport in Nice a month later.
When I arrived in Ilona’s house in Le Luc I could feel the energy of this wonderful place. In my apartment there, I was able to find peace, had space and time to let everything work, to reflect, to sleep, to relax, to recharge my batteries.
After taking the medical history on the first day, Ilona and I went through trauma, entanglement, dependency, guilt and responsibility for ten days together.
With Ilona’s help I managed to free myself from suffering, to let go of emotions in connection with trauma, in forgiveness and in love. I have learned anew …
to maintain posture and to let go
to live and to love again
to nurture my own roots.
I couldn’t believe it myself, from unit to unit, from day to day, even overnight, I felt more and more change, refinement, joy, the motivation to look ahead again.
Our work expanded my HORIZON
Access to insight and acceptance
An access to love and forgiveness
Access to peace, freedom and gratitude
An access to myself, to meaning and love of life
An access to generosity
I want, I decide, I am important …. a new joy of life, a new Me.
Now that I am back home, I find that I perceive the world around me differently. People perceive and approach me differently. I actively take up my space and consciously practice mindfulness.
For me, the breathing method has become a tool that I no longer want to do without. I notice that I take breaks and integrate breathing more and more into everyday life.
After I internalized the breathing technique for the first four days, we turned to body work. The exciting, indeed impressive thing about it for me personally is the mirror of myself that was brought to my attention through the method. I’ve learned to look and accept. The traumatic experiences, the guilt itself and the lack of self-worth had begun to show their traces on me.
My gaze turned away from the side of my heart, my feet were without firm footing. I was twisted from the bottom up and I was not even aware of it until then. My pelvis had collapsed without tension, my head tilted slightly down, my forehead wrinkled. Step by step we went into more detail together and integrated breathing into the movement. I could hardly believe it, I managed to build a new body feeling with breath and mindfulness. In everyday life, I notice when I am short of breath or out of position. The correction enables me to integrate better and better.
It is astonishing how Ilona is able to strengthen one´s personal potential, to believe in oneself again, to trust oneself, to look ahead again, at eye level with the HORIZON.
Thank you for your trust, thank you for your patience, thank you for your understanding
Thank you for your good spirit, your feeling, your view, your words
Thank you for your competence and energy
Thanks for your wisdom
Time with you remains a revelation.
I am very happy that we have found each other and I only wish that your work will help many people to be happy and go upright through life again.
In deep connection
Addendum: It is now 7 weeks later. I decided to move to Norway and start a new life! I’m really looking forward to it!
(translated from German)